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Snowman

When you miss spring
And you are tired with the cold

When you are a fool to even consider to make a snowman moves

When burning the bridge seems like the most logical step

Delete contact

De-human

"Life is what happens to you while you are busy playing with your gadget"

I am wondering since when I start getting attached to hand phone. My supervisor used to complain about me not bringing hand phone. There was even a period when I did not have an active number. The thing was at that time, I have many better things to do than doing something with my phone. Gardening, cooking, going to the gym, cycling, walking, getting lost in the city, finishing the English section from the city library.

The thing about gadget is that it change the way you interact with people. Whenever you have a gathering, rather than looking the other person in the eye, you talk while your eyes are on the phone. You also start to have a different perception on time. If initially waiting for a letter or a once per week phone call is sufficient, nowadays, hours with no contact become too long.


Insecure

Creating a new relation makes you wonder whether you are good enough, whether the other person shares the same feeling as you or not. The same thing goes for break ups. Once things go down you start to ask yourself about what went wrong, on whether you are worthy for the other person or not. However, what if the answer lies not on the past, but rather on the future or the absence of it. In this case, being in the same phase of life and having a shared value become critical. You need a dose of compatibility and after that, it is a matter about intention and will to make it work. Friction is part of life, so the question is not about finding the right fit through years of dating, but rather to work around it. In a way, this is about value, things you consider more important in life. 
I still cannot imagine living apart from my other half. Having kids with one of the parents being constantly away. Probably, I should not overthink this matter alone.

Do'a

Not sure whether this is the right do'a, but this is one of my favorites

اللهُمَّ أَرِنَا الحَقَّ حَقّاً وَارْزُقْنَا التِبَاعَةَ وَأَرِنَا البَاطِلَ بَاطِلاً وَارْزُقْنَا اجْتِنَابَهُ، بِرَحْمَتِكَ يَا أَرْحَمَ الرَّاحِمِينَ.
Dear Allah, please show me what is haq and ways to follow it and please show me what is bathil and ways to avoid it.

If he will make me closer to You, then please make it easier, but if he won't, please don't let this feeling grow stronger.

Summer

"Some people are meant to fall in love with each other but not meant to be together" (500 Days of Summer)

Kemala

"Kamu berubah La. Kamu jadi lebih serius memandang hidup, tak lagi membiarkan semua mengalir."
"Salahkah itu Ra?"
"Ngga ada yang salah. Hidup ini pilihan. Mungkin ini tanda kamu makin dewasa."
"Aku masih sempat berharap kalau aku membiarkan semuanya mengalir, aku akan baik-baik saja. Tapi pada akhirnya aku lelah Ra. Aku berada pada satu titik aku takut pada perasaanku sendiri hingga pilihannya adalah memformalkan rasa itu atau membiarkannya pergi."
"Dan kau membiarkannya pergi?"
"Iya, aku tak bisa melihat masa depan dengannya. Dan ketika aku membaca diariku rupanya aku tak pernah yakin dengannya. Aku sedih Ra, tapi somehow, aku lega. Aku tahu aku membuat keputusan yang tepat. Mungkin karena itu kamu melihat aku berubah, aku jadi lebih tegas."

Deja vu

"Kenapa lo tutup teleponnya?" "Gw ngga tahu harus ngomong apa tapi tadi dia yang mengangkat." "Dia bilang apa?" "Hallo ...," jawab Kirey. "Suaranya manis banget, La." "Yeah, right. Dan abis itu lo tutup" "Oh ayolah La, senang sedikit dengan kebahagiaan orang." "Iye, iye ... gw bahagia."
Dan kini waktu kembali mempertemukan mereka.
"Kamu mau aku jemput?" "Mau :)"

Head Over Heels

Twenty years with no contact Yet seeing him again felt familiar

Titik

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Entangled

X : How to entangle one's name with another?
Y : Getting married?
X : Nope, you do not have to go that far, writing a paper together is a lot easier.
Y : Scholar %$#@!