Monday, April 21, 2014


The thing is ... I don't know where my home is anymore. Whenever I have to return to the Netherlands, I feel a bit anxious. I miss being with my family or hang out with my colleagues in ITB. On the other hand, I also miss my life in Eindhoven where I can be who ever I want to be without worry what people may think of me. I miss my friends, library, sport centrum and the office. Things that I cannot get in Indonesia. But I also miss being involve in something. So I don't know ...

I think I am a bit lost ... I am not sure where I want to be or on the opposite, I know that I want to have a career in Indonesia since it enables me to be entangled with a community but being here and there is difficult.

Sunday, April 06, 2014

Medical Anthropology

I am still thinking to write a proposal about medical anthropology ... I am interested in elaborating the idea of comparison ... taking a bit idea from Strathern, Tyler and probably Deleuze. Like many other things that I did in my life, probably, my interest in medical anthropology was for a wrong reason. But what is the right reason in science? That you're good at it, that it is linear with your background, because you know that you can do something good with it or because you met a person that can inspire you? Until now, I am still wandering the place where I can fit in. I've been wandering around a lot. Changing direction whenever I want simply because I can ...

Probably, it is time to settle down. To invest rather than to runaway ....

Friday, March 21, 2014

After Darkness, There is Light

Yeah right, after being stupid like adding a person to my linkedin account (which I never done before), today I made it up by working the whole day until I forgot to take my lunch. Well, probably this is another stupidity, I am going nowhere by being ill. But at least I got a passion boost, although it is most probably for the wrong reason. For now, I don't really care about the reason, as long it creates the emergent effect that I am looking for.

c'est la vie

Thursday, March 20, 2014

Stupid is ...

... downloading his picture and saving it in the computer

Wednesday, March 19, 2014


Good observer, does not talk too much and quite aware about difference. And although I know that these qualities are part of being a good anthropologist I still found his performances as charming. I did not involve in any conversation with him and I only knew his name on the second day I met him. So why I am still thinking about him? 

Oh well, I will just blame my paper ... Editing paper produce unexpected effect

Tuesday, March 18, 2014


"some people are worth melting for ..." --Frozen

I don't know what happened to me, but somehow I cannot get him out of my system

Friday, February 14, 2014

Not a Gypsy

The hardest thing from moving from place to another is to ask your heart to move. Once you're settle, you know that you have to continue your journey ...