Monday, September 26, 2016

Carpe Diem!

"So how are you doing?"
"I am fine, I guess. Living the moment, while I can. Met old friends, a bit lost in nostalgia. But that's how life goes, is not it? Constantly sad when you have to say goodbye to someone who is very close to your heart until you no longer know what sadness means."
"How about the future?"
"At first, I was thinking to settle or at least, to have a plan on what I am going to do for the coming years. But now, I do not care anymore. Continuing it if I feel like it, ending it if I am not. Keeping all options open."

Sunday, September 25, 2016


“You dream about your sheep and the Pyramids, but you’re different from me, because you want t realize your dreams. I just want to dream about Mecca. I’ve already imagined a thousand times crossing the desert, arriving at the Plaza of the Sacred Stone, the seven times I walk around it before allowing myself to touch it. I’ve already imagined the people who would be at my prayers we would share. But I’m afraid that it would all be a disappointment, so I prefer just to dream about it.” — Paulo Coelho, The Alchemist, p.57
The downfall of being a pessimist is that you constantly imagine the worst. When something good happen, you see it as an exception and if something bad happen, your pessimism kind of get a validation and you go deeper into the darkness. Of course, you have a dream but then again, you do not belief that it may come true, so rather than working on it, you prefer to dream about it. Idealizing the ideal, without trying to make it real.

Tuesday, September 13, 2016

Zero Sum Game

"But what if everything follows a zero sum game, it is either all or nothing?"
"Do you really believe in that?"
"I do not know. I really want to believe the opposite but sometimes, it is just so freaking difficult. He does not live nearby, he is not the romantic type, he never walks me home and we never talk about the future. I think I am done."
"So that's it?"
"Yeah, I don't think it's going to work."

Monday, September 05, 2016

5 Minutes

The seminar was almost started when he came in and took an empty seat next to me. He put his pen and his note book on the desk and listened to the presenter. His silence broke when he asked about how an universal model can accommodate Indonesian diversity. That was when I started to pay a better attention at him. Wavy hair, eyeglasses, a batik shirt and a dark pant. We talked for a bit before many people came to him. He gave me his phone number.


"... What does that mean-- 'tame'?" asked the Little Prince. "It is an act too often neglected," said the fox. ...